Since then though life has never been the same, I have been wary of men, especially older Hispanic males, now I am extremely overprotective of Jazmin, I try to keep my distance from everyone, even my family and I hate myself because it was my fault if I didn't exist she would have been safe. At the beginning of my senior year, around September 2014, I became severely depressed because I realized that I wouldn't be worth much and would only cause pain. I overcame my depression over the last year by drowning myself in work, trying to keep my mind occupied. I once graduated and went to Prince Georges Community College in the fall of 2015, even as I became consumed in the dark abyss that was my mind. All I could think about was how much of a burden I am and how everyone would be better off without me, so I dropped out of school and attempted suicide by overdosing on pills at 12am on September 15, 2015. That morning I woke up devastated that nothing had happened. If it didn't work, you would think that 36 mixed pills would have worked. I texted my other older sister Maritza and asked her what would happen if a person took about 30 pills of different types, I hadn't forgotten what she said but she understood that I had done exactly the same thing and l 'he said to mine